hellogoodbye.

Goodbye.

2009-07-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

Destruction and despair
The thoughts and care
Put into a box of pity
Never opened for never pretty
Lies I tell you, Lies they spread
Lies so contagious climbing on thread
Make your way to the top,
See what you want then drop,
Drop so deep you can never reach
The top of it all, not even through a speech
You’ll fall so hard,
It compares to a yard
Of dark lines, perpendicular to facts
Long lines, of tracks
That used to be your path of life,
A lovely home a lovely wife,
It’s all destroyed now.
So find away to say goodbye to it all, somehow.

fade.

2009-06-24T21:16:00.000-07:00

she turned to face the sunlight

it was warm and blazing bright
the colors she saw now did fade,
she thought she'd have to wait a decade,
to see what she saw
since this was all through a war.

she awoke with a gasp
as she tried to understand and grasp
a dream that showed her light
through the darkness of night
she fiddled with her thoughts
that were now far away faded into spots.

what did it mean,
this colorful dream,
a reflection of me?
can it be?
the light that shines so bright,
during a war and fight?

can it be me?

a new start for a broken heart.

2009-06-17T02:20:00.000-07:00

blind to witness the feelings that hurt,
through the words he spoke like dirt,
she called to apologize,
through a song she memorized,
she was too hurt to see,
the damage and degree.

he played her wrong.
he played her strong.
she got nothing but hypocrisy,
and a heart of obduracy.
she failed to realize it was no fantasy,
a faith lied in consultancy.

you're words of wisdom,
and lies of criticism,
they no longer exist
because she no longer missed,
you're hypocrisy words
that were now not heard.

the silence disobeyed,
the meaning that remained,
the broken heart,
is free to re-start.

I WANT,

2009-06-09T04:41:00.000-07:00

zac effron.

i can say he is the hottest alive. im my opinion at least :)

i will..

2009-06-03T09:50:00.001-07:00

blame school grades for giving me a heart attack.
spend time studying to get my grades up.
cry.
have as much fun possible during summer.
wish my grades good bye, for geo especially (o'day) yeah you know why now.
make sure no one says im a good student (i am not)
make sure no one says im smart (i am not)
make people say i am hard working (i am)
help mayzhee get over how much she misses (tok) during summer.
gossip with mayzhee about COUGH (tok)
REPLACE TOK with a familiar name (;
tell iris NO.. till she understands (i doubt) i still love you heaps.
take care of kristi when she gets DRUNK.
go crazy.
now shut up and move on with life, accept what ive achieved.

"mistakes need to be made, but not as many as i have made."

"Every persons life has different lyrics but in the end we all sing the same song.."

yes.. ive been told this, once too many..

my blog has everything to do with school.
&thats because i love school so much (sure)
im worried, thats all.

just stay there, and stay happy.
look on the bright side? you'll have to face this misery for the rest of your life.
i used to love blogging. guess old things just repeats itself.

its true.. i actually do feel crap.. (what perfect icon for me, and to end with)

PROM NIGHT, PARTY NIGHT

2009-06-02T04:23:00.000-07:00

&these are all up on facebook, but im being bored and uploading them here.

&im off to do some work.

we just...

2009-06-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

completed one year of ib.

seniors next year.
when i realize how happy i am because i finished a year of ib and exams, i overlook the next 2 months and realize its not over. its barely even started. this is nothing but double the things we'd have to face in the near future. i could list what i have to do and need to do before school finishes but ill relax my mind by a quote, a quote the sums up what we've gone through and what we will always have to go through, no matter what stage in life.

"the most valuable result of all education is the ability to make yourself do the thing you have to do, when it ought to be done, whether you like it or not."

for now ill be fooled and look at the positive side of things; summer&sleep.

You think it's that easy.

2009-05-11T08:52:00.000-07:00

Think Again.

A shadow away from the knob, we aren't there yet. Those few millimeters resembles another year.
A year we'll have to wait to endure the end feeling.
Until then, A TO DO LIST:

1.) Wake up.
2.) Survive.
3.) Go back to bed.

IB.

2009-05-11T08:16:00.000-07:00

I feel it's controlling life.
I feel it's a social system we follow daily.
I feel it's stripped our freedom, and thrown it away in a little bag with no pity.
I feel it's intentionally making us hate it.
I feel it's indirectly saying, constantly 'we can't do it'
But afterall,
It's not about what I feel, it's about the continuous drag of amendments we must make in order to fulfill what IB feels.